Last night I had a drug dream. It was the first one in a long time. But I wasn't using the drugs just involved with people who were. In the dream they sold my money and car, it was a good reminder of what it was like, and how I never want it to be again.
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Re: Drug Dreams
Thu, October 25, 2007 - 10:39 AMlol "sold your money". well, there's another good reason why we chose to stop. i don't know how long you been C/S, but for me in the beginning, i had using dreams.. -
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Re: Drug Dreams
Thu, October 25, 2007 - 10:49 AMit was suppose to be stole, but I had just woke up so please forgive my type errors. I've been in recovery for 19 years, that's why it was so unusual for me to be having dreams like that. -
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Re: Drug Dreams
Thu, October 25, 2007 - 1:11 PMya know, lately there have been several people in my life engaged in self destructive behaviors. one just passed on 2 wks. ago. One of my ex-b/f 's is drinking himself to death and my nephew is battling his addiction demons while periodically staying w/ me to detox. i too, have had some dreams and have found myself thinking about the past, something i don't try to dwell upon. i hate that part of addiction being just right there, playing the cool fool.
i guess that's why i keep my fellowship close. inside those rooms i feel safe, cause all around me are brushfires ready to explode. or implode. and there is no way to avoid the realities of life. one of them being most people are more screwed up than me despite outward appearances and rap sheets.
suppose the best thing is too share about it. at least it isn't rattling around inside my low ram brain.
so thx for sharing angela. reminds me i'm not alone and at least get my thoughts out posting... -
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Re: Drug Dreams
Thu, October 25, 2007 - 1:53 PMMy ex relapsed after 9 years and thats why i left him recently. I didn't feel like dealing with the insanity of his addiction. In the meetings we always talk about how our addiction have effected our lives but we forget to talk about how other peoples addiction can effect us. That's is probably why I had that dream. So I'm going to a meeting this evening after work and share, cause in those rooms I know I'm Never Alone. -
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Thu, October 25, 2007 - 3:20 PMyea, the crossover rate from AA into Alanon is amazing...at least around here. times sure have changed.
sorry for your loss angela. 9 yrs. is a long time.
{{{{hugs}}}}
where is everybody around here anyway? -
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Re: Drug Dreams
Thu, October 25, 2007 - 10:19 PMum...working ('n shit).
my using dreams were some of my first shared experiences in meetings. it's something that unites us in our addictions. old-timers can remember the anxiety in the early days. and new-comers can rest assured that it's not some crazy anomoly to dream about using or just drugs in general.
my dreams are gaining momentum of late. might be fall. might be high-anxiety, which seems to be a trigger for my intense dreams. but i'm sure this post and a guy i work with are building up some steam for another drug dream in the near future. i kinda feel compelled to dream about it to see how it turns out.
it's good to know that multiple years doesn't squash the topic. -
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Re: Drug Dreams
Fri, October 26, 2007 - 6:37 AMI've never had many ddreams, but was fortunate to have a wise enough sponsor to have used them as an opportunity for his own recovery. He was interested in dream analysis, similar to what I understand Bill W. did--remember, Carl Jung was an early consultant to the old timers. I just (typical...) labeled it "Jung and the Restless" and put it in my recovery tool box.
My photopartner in motorsports freelancing is in the VA hospital-perhaps dying. I've tracked back my workplace histories, and realize the concept of being the eye of a toxic hurricane in both my personal and professional life is always evident. I need to stay in the moment, live my recovery, do service (my scarcity issues include running out of service work--my neurosis!) and insist on having a good time sober.
I have two sponsors dead from natural causes and the likelihood all the important local people in my life will be gone within the decade. Creating community has become a priority daily exercise. I'd LIKE to do a something fun next summer for my 25th sobriety bday, but at the rate people are dropping off the planet......
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