Hello, my name is Teressa, and I'm a recovering addict. New to Tribe, but SO HAPPY I found this place.
I've got five and a half years clean this month, and have been hitting something that I've heard as the "five year desert." At least, I think that's what this is. I've really been feeling the need to go back and review my recovery, to get back to the basics, I mean, really hardcore lately. It's been a couple of years since my using days have really come up (the staying clean part is now very easy - it's the living part that's difficult!) in my memory, but lately, they are.
I am not thinking of using. But for some reason, I'm really feeling the need to process (re-process?) my early recovery. Basics. Something. I heard one other woman at a meeting say once that around 5 years (roughly the time it takes for a brain to fully process an event) you hit a strange stretch.
Can anyone hop in here and clarify what's going on? I am not thinking of using, have no using friends. I do NOT attend meetings anymore, however, and lately, I've been really feeling the urge to go to a few. I've been feeling the urge to talk to people about my early recovery, about how I got HERE today, about what that felt like, what it took, what it is today.
What's changed?
I've got five and a half years clean this month, and have been hitting something that I've heard as the "five year desert." At least, I think that's what this is. I've really been feeling the need to go back and review my recovery, to get back to the basics, I mean, really hardcore lately. It's been a couple of years since my using days have really come up (the staying clean part is now very easy - it's the living part that's difficult!) in my memory, but lately, they are.
I am not thinking of using. But for some reason, I'm really feeling the need to process (re-process?) my early recovery. Basics. Something. I heard one other woman at a meeting say once that around 5 years (roughly the time it takes for a brain to fully process an event) you hit a strange stretch.
Can anyone hop in here and clarify what's going on? I am not thinking of using, have no using friends. I do NOT attend meetings anymore, however, and lately, I've been really feeling the urge to go to a few. I've been feeling the urge to talk to people about my early recovery, about how I got HERE today, about what that felt like, what it took, what it is today.
What's changed?
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