What an awesome fellowship I am a part of. I just finished reading the 3rd tradition in the Basic Text and in the It work how and why. I am so proud of myself. I just wanted to share what I got from it or what I have become more aware of. The third tradition talks about I'm sure you all know our only requirement for membership......THE DESIRE.......to stop using. Not the final decision to or the promise that no one can promise. I have learned more recently that I do in fact have a disease. I am not exempt from its grasp for any reason I am just like everyone else I can now more closely relate to the newcomer. As a result of thinking and believing that I was in fact exempt. I am me it will never happen to me. Well it did. What a humbling experience to get my 30day chip. What a humbling experience to sit during the birthday countdown at the campout and watch all of my 3 yr buddies stand while I sit and think about what I did. Poopie!!!! I have a DESIRE today more than ever to participate in my recovery. I am excited that I get to start over. The butt kicking machine's battery is dying as is the lie.
I am glad that I am me today. I am greatful that I have been given a reason to look at who I am at a greater measure. I am even more greatful that I get to be a member of this fellowship solely based on my DESIRE to sop using. I wasn't turned down for membership my second time around because I had bad credit.
What an awesome feeling it is to sit and talk with someone who is going through it whether they have 1 month or 18 years and be able to say its not worth it.
I am proud to be a member of this fellowhip. Thanks for letting me babble babble!